Aug. 7, 2020

The restaurant was empty, save for two other tables. Spoons slid through our dessert, split three ways. We were anxious but determined to enjoy it, somehow. It was March 10, and the coronavirus had just hit New York City. We laughed, but with worry in our brows and the preamble of panic in our eyes.

The next day, I packed up my desk at work: the computer, the mouse, the keyboard. I left the giant monitor and two boxes of Girl Scout cookies behind.

My brother’s birthday arrived, and instead of the usual dinner and drinks, we saw each other on a FaceTime call. He was downtown and I was uptown. It felt wrong for his birthday to pass with such little fanfare, so I sent him two pints of ice cream through Postmates, as a surprise. He called to report that when the bell rang, what he saw was jarring: a man wearing a mask, gloves, goggles and white hooded disposable coveralls, handing over a brown paper bag.

In bed at night, in my Manhattan apartment where I live alone, I stared at the ceiling, unable to sleep. The silence was unnerving. Many of my neighbors, in my building and on my block, had vanished. I grew up in New York and have lived nowhere else since I was 7. Not once in that time — not during the snowstorm of 1983 nor the snowstorm of 1996, not after Sept. 11 or during the blackout of 2003, not after Hurricane Sandy in 2012 — had the streets ever been so quiet. The moan of a siren would speed by intermittently. Within days, they became more frequent, the wailing echoing off near-empty buildings.

By the third week in April, there were more than 420,000 cases in New York. More than 30,000 people had died. I dug my thermometer out of the toiletries drawer and kept it on my desk as I worked, checking my temperature repeatedly, afraid the virus was somehow sneaking up on me.

Delicate pink cherry blossoms unfurled in Central Park. I walked among them, bandanna over my nose and mouth, taking pictures, hypervigilant of staying at least 12 feet away from the other folks strolling.

Attending my first Zoom birthday party involved arranging comfortable seating and flattering lighting, and smiling at the one-square-inch rectangle of laptop screen that contained a pixelated version of the birthday girl, even as the audio glitched.

Birds chirped merrily as I edited articles about the virus’s impact in New York, facing a “Rear Window”-style view where I saw no signs of life except for the 7 p.m. clap. That’s when my friend who lives one flight up would lean out of the window as far as she could around the child safety guard, and I would do the same, until we could both see a sliver of each other’s faces. We would wave, and shout: “Hiiii!” Sometimes she looked a bit haunted — her position as a physical therapist in a hospital put her dangerously close to the I.C.U., and she would remove her clothes in the hallway before going inside her apartment to join her son and her mother. Three generations under one roof in the ghostly city.

There were bodies stacked in refrigerated trucks in Queens and food lines a mile long in New Jersey. A slew of small businesses shut down, including personal favorites: Lucky Strike, Gem Spa, Record Mart. Rent was due and jobless claims surged.

How does one mourn in isolation? How does one process grief for an entire city?

I had spent decades as a die-hard New Yorker, defending my hometown against the smack-talking of malcontents and come-latelys, and my heart ached for my fellow citizens, for the transit workers and the funeral directors, the unsheltered and the first responders.

Privately, I railed against my own internal upheaval, mad at how selfish it sounded in my head: Did I still love the city if bars and museums were closed? If there were no plays, musicals or movies? No Queens Night Market, no cocktails on the roof of the Met, no tennis lessons in Central Park, no burlesque shows in Bushwick, no dim sum in Chinatown, no Donna Summer dance parties in Bed-Stuy? If the spontaneity of running into an old friend or making a brand-new one had evaporated?

In mid-May, there was talk of reopening. I hadn’t been on the subway in over 75 days, and I couldn’t remember the last time I’d worn closed-toe shoes or pants. (Caftans — day in, day out.) Seldom-seen gray hairs, usually disguised expertly in a salon, met me in the mirror each morning. Both my toenails and my dog’s were in desperate need of professional help. I wondered if for my own birthday, in June, it might be possible to do something sort of social.

Then, on Memorial Day, George Floyd died after being pinned under the knee of a Minneapolis police officer.

Following the demonstrations and late-night destruction — shattered windows and stolen merchandise — the mayor instituted a curfew.

It was New York City’s first curfew since World War II.

The protests continued, day after day. Doctors and nurses knelt in Times Square with raised fists; thousands of cyclists pedaled while shouting “no justice, no peace.”

Encounters with the authorities were captured by protesters and shared on social media. A police officer was suspended after video emerged of him pushing a woman to the ground in Brooklyn. Another officer was suspended for pulling down a man’s face mask and spraying pepper spray directly in his face.

The cases of the virus in the city kept dropping.

In July, we hit Phase 3: Restaurant dining (outdoors) returned. Pedicures were back. Beaches opened, then pools. There were kids eating Italian ices in the street and men opening up fire hydrants. It felt like the Old New York.

It’s not, of course.

I don’t know when I’ll ever share dessert in a restaurant again.

The city has changed, the people have changed. The country has changed. The world has changed. We walk outside masked, coated in a residue of terror and grief.

But on July 22, I saw a metaphor in a video on Twitter, and it’s cheesy, but I took it as a sign.

During a thunderstorm, lightning struck the Statue of Liberty, the bolt slicing through an immense and menacing cloud. The statue stood steadfast and unmovable. She didn’t budge an inch.

Produced by Eve Lyons, Natalie Shutler and Tracy Ma.

Daniel Arnold is a photographer in New York. Dodai Stewart is a deputy editor on the Metro desk of The Times.