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December 12, 2023

Praxis Founder Dryden Brown’s Utopian Visions

When he took the stage at a conference for “start-up societies” in Amsterdam in October, 27-year-old Dryden Brown cut a rumpled figure, moving stiffly in a […]
October 13, 2023

Jennifer Graham Likes Jennifer Graham

She shared my name. How could we not become friends? And how could I not have gone to see her when it mattered most? She had […]
October 11, 2023

From LSD to I.P.O.

This may be a tale about the rise of a German sandal brand, but it is not a straightforward fashion story. After all, for a large […]
October 6, 2023

My (Liberating) Secret Shame

I may be unable to have children, and I am relieved. When I was 16, my mother told me that I would never be happier. Entering […]
September 29, 2023

My 11-Year Relationship That Never Happened

At 50, divorced and suffering from delusions, I experienced the greatest love I had ever known. If only it were real. It is unusual, doctors tell […]
September 23, 2023

Inmovilizada por hombres, conocí el miedo y el amor

Creía que ser sexualmente atrevida era un juego que tenía permitido jugar. No tenía idea del castigo que me esperaba, ni de la sorprendente sanación que […]
September 22, 2023

Our 34-Year Age Gap Was Showing

When my husband, turning 80, agreed I could see a younger man, we couldn’t predict the surprising way our lives together would unfold. Nine years ago, […]
September 15, 2023

Pinned Under the Bodies of Men

I thought being sexually bold was a game I was allowed to play. I had no idea of the punishment that awaited me — or the […]
September 8, 2023

Who Is Trusted to Have a Child?

As a married gay man and an emergency pediatrician, I continue to wrestle with expectations of having a ‘traditional’ family life. A few years ago, while […]
September 1, 2023

Why I Dress (and Act) Like a Man

Tired of being deferential to men in my relationships, I decided to create my own drag king persona. Slow moving, slow talking, with a melancholy sense […]